Shannon, you keep telling me I’m perfect; and I have some things to tell you. Please don’t look at me any different, please please, I’m still the same person; just not as perfect as you think I am.
Confession #1; I have starved myself. And not just in year four liked I told you. Last year. And a little bit this year. Do not hate me please.
Confession #2; I have self harmed. Not cut, necessarily, just scratched, hit my legs, pinched myself as hard as i could, anything to take the pain away.
Confession #3; That day when I said family stuff was getting to me? My parents where on the verge of breaking up for real. My family aren’t as close as you think. The only thing keeping my parents together is De, Jed, Ella and myself.
Confession #4; I really hate it when people call me more pretty then them. Or skinny. Or anything. I hate it when people are lighter than me. And I know that’s messed up, but it’s true.
Please, you are amazing and beautiful and perfect and gorgeous, and you are not alone. I love you. ♥
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ReplyDeleteI know I'm sorry, it's just I've never really told anyone. And it's hard to explain the starving thing. Like, I did it without really meaning to. I'd hear someone say they weighed something lighter than me and just stop eating for a day or two, and then after that I'd realize what I'd done and be really upset with myself cause I never ever wanted to have an eating problem. I always get upset when i read things about them and such. I just can't help it. Sometimes it feels like someone else is controlling me. I know this is a lot to take in, and I love you more than you could imagine. You are my best friend. ♥ ♥ ♥
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ReplyDeleteI promise, I promise, I promise. ♥
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